Monthly Archives: November 2011

Must . . . keep . . . knitting . . .

Friday came and withit came disaster. Well, realization of disaster. Well, realization of lapse in brain power.

This holiday season in Knitted Gift season for some of my loved ones (mhuaha). For the nephews this includes scarves. I finished the one for the youngest one — a simple pattern — and set it aside. I picked up the yarn for the next youngest one — they are both under ten — and proceeded to make it into a wide adult width. Saturday, I started over. I have two scarves, and about two weeks so that I can finish them, attach fringe, box them up, and ship of the Box of Gifties to the family across the continent.

I’m not freaking out. I am glad I didn’t decide to do socks.

Yesterday, we gained an addition to our household, and I’m happy to say that I am, indeed, a fiber-arts enabler. Hopefully Beth’ll be posting about it soon.

Still waiting for the proof copy of Fairy Queen to get here. Once Knitapalooza is over I can get back to serious writing. WiP awaits.

Finished Grace in the Desert this weekend and am moving on to other books. Will review it, but I’m not sure if here or the other blog is more appropriate. May do it in both places. It was thought-provoking and entertaining, though at some points repetitive.

Gah. Must. Knit.

Progress!

See what happens when I take the pressure off? I get shit done! It’s amazing.

Yesterday I spent a whole huge chunk of my time fiddling with the file and Lulu.com to get Fairy Queen print-worthy. I was tempted to just so okay — the formatting looked decent, I got all my edits in, the placement was correct — but I decided one more galley copy now that the cover is done and all. There is one teeny thing I’m less than thrilled about, and I may or may not gird my loins and wage into battle with Word over it, but all and all, I’m pleased. Still have to toss up a description at lulu.com and then see about getting folks to review it locally and carry it locally, but that’ll be more fun than print-ready formatting. When I decide to self-pub novels again (and I might, though I have hopes for mainstream acceptance with the WiP, which I’m interested in primarily because I want someone else to do the work for me, and a teeny bit because I still want to be a Real Writer(tm) though I know that is a hold-over) I’m very likely going to pay someone to do this part of it for me. Possibly will bribe Beth, but I don’t really want to take her away from her projects, either.

I also spent an hour and a half at our local library, browsing and, obstensibly, researching. In reality, this means that I picked up a copy of Atlas of Oregon so I can pin down where the WiP takes place — I’m considering a made up town west of Salem and Corvalis, kind of between the two, still in the Willamette Valley, because I need the town to not be snowbound, as the book starts is winter. Soggy, not snowbound. I may or may not have lost myself for a few hours reading about the geological history of the land. I certainly did not lose myself reading about the different soil compositions throughout the state. Only a complete nerd would do that. *snif*

I also snagged Neptune’s Ark: From Icthyosaurs to Orcas. Yes, the title jumped out at me, and maybe I am a nerd after all. But at least I’m a widely read nerd? Because I also grabbed Medieval Home Companion, which I was sad to learn was not a complete translation of the original (well, copy of the original) 1393 treatise written by an older husband to his younger wife to help instruct her on, heh, keeping home. She did ask him for instruction, and it’s tender and sweet and quaint. This particular edition omits most of the sections on religious duty and piety, which is a shame. I’m hoping our local university library has a copy. Why would you take that out? People can skip it, and you miss a whole bunch of nuances if you separate history from history. Religion and the church was such a huge part of life, especially for the mid-to-upper classes. Sad.

Managed to also get, and laugh a lot over, Northwest Basic Training which was quite hilarious.

Still plodding through Grace in the Desert, Listening for Coyote and there’s another title whose name escapse me and I’m far too lazy to go look.

Stayed home today with breathing issues, will get some knitting done. I’m making progress. It’s easier when one’s goals are realistic. And when, you know, you aren’t too busy beating yourself up for failure. Who knew?

Setting Realistic Goals

It’s a learning process, right? So, it’s not like I’m a big fat failure because halfway through my “75k done by the end of December no wait I mean January” goal I’ve decided to go back on it. And it’s not like not getting Fairy Queen out when I thought I would makes me a big fat failure, either. I’m learning. What have I learned?

I’ve learned that while I love writing, I really hate the packaging part of it. Despise. Will end up putting it off and missing self-imposed deadlines. Hate hate hate. I’ve learned that while I do wish to start thinking of writing as what I do, job wise, and the day job is the day job, that doesn’t mean I automatically get 8 or even 4 hours a day to work on it. I work full time, in retail, and Christmas is coming. I have a handful of animals to care for and spend time with. I like and enjoy knitting (and have a number of projects to finish by December, which I can reasonably finish but not if I’m writing as much as I’d planned to be writing, and Christmas is not a self-imposed deadline and thus cannot be moved) and there are days at a time when, during my after work hours, I want to knit, not write. I’m (re)learning that my desires come in cycles — I’ll go a week or so only wanting to knit, and then a week or so wanting to write. This isn’t good for wanting to churn out enough work to start shopping it around, and it’s not good for making headway with the WiP, which has 5 books lined up already. As much as I don’t want it to be true, the day job often takes it out of me and I return home a zombie. I’ve learned that, along needing to cooridinate planning Big Projects so that we both don’t need the computer extensively at the same time, I need to not plan Big Projects with the same time-frame, because then neither of them happen.

I’m learning that it’s pointless to be envious of people who get to write full time and churn out almost a million words in print a year. (Though I’m happy to discover that I’m less envious of their success and more envious of the time they were allowed to spend WRITING)

So, I’m regrouping and rethinking. I am obviously going to be still working on the WiP: book 1, but I’m tossing out a need to pay attention to word counts. I get done what I get done, before the end of December. I’ll also still poke at Fairy unless I can get the Awesome Beth to do it for me (hatehatehate the packaging). The goal is now to get to January 1st with my knitting projects done, Fairy out, and time to devout to the WiP. It’s great to be happy for the folks who can just write and now work Outside, but I need to plan according to what my free time allows, and that can’t mean foregoing all the things I enjoy aside from writing. I’m not aiming for a crunch writing period here, a la NaNo, I’m aiming for a sustainable schedule that allows me to make forward progress, yet doesn’t choke other things out of my week. So, I continue to tweak, and it does not make me a failure.